It's ur First, lil'One

Hi baby. You're finally one now.
真的是我的 little One 了.
Regardless how much anger, how much tears and how much troubles you gave me, my love for you has never lessen.

For the day I knew I had you, I took extra care, eat whatever supplement which w you good for you, take whatever food which is good for you.

Just for the nutrition you need in me.

How much I craved for coke and other sorts of soft drinks I also tell myself no. Because your great-grandma said that baby come out w have lots of phelgm.

I won't be late for any of the appointment, just wanting to see you through the scans earlier.

When you're threatened pre-term, I curb myself from going out. I want you to be fully grown in me, fully totally ready to meet me. I just want you to be fine.

The day when I had long hours of pain I went to the gynae, I was telling you if you could stay longer till you're 38weeks. But you didn't hear me I guess.

The day gynae pulled you out from me, I felt as if an elephant stepped on my heart. You didn't yell or cry. Till he place the suction tube in your mouth, you made me smile unknowingly; your whinings.

The minute they place you in my arms... From that moment, and it's that moment; I knew you're my everything.

The day of discharge, I was so happy. Your pd said you're all fine. You're able to go home with me!

When you're 5days old, the happiness strucked me with devastating news.

Thank god. You're ok. Coming home with me after the awful 3d2n there. I took ur worn onesis and cried to sleep that two nights. When you're back I carry you as long as I could.

My heart really aches a lot then.

Slowly, as you grow, you're getting more chubbier. Your big puffy cheeks and your thunder thighs. Mommy's mad love.

On 30april, at the age of 7months plus, you got admitted due to stomach flu. I believe the drip 弄痛你了. Just couldn't bear to go home leaving you alone there.

Till now, you're alr 12months old. Idk you will understand how much Mommy love you, but I just wanna say you stand the most in Mommy's heart.

How many decades I can continue give you my love, idk.

But you can have my promise, Mommy will love you till my last breathe-because you're a part of me ❤

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