Just wanna keep track of my life, Ray's existence, birthstory and growth.
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Idk if this is one of the pregnancy symptoms; It only occurs to me that i need a check,
is when i wanted to throw up when i ate chicken chop in school; Campus Haven.
My appetite haven always been very very very good. Something not right when i'm feeling perfectly alright, but when i ate that chicken chop, i 反胃 and wanna throw up...
Beside, my period was delayed for 2 weeks already. Got an instinct, ka zuay kenna already :/
Skipped afternoon lessons and went back Woodlands. Guardian to get a kit.
Didn't tell Hus anything about the whole thing. To me, i feel that, bo pa gey kenna,
though i have got the feel. Wait everything is confirmed first then tell him, also not late wad~
Bought my EAC honey milk tea before heading back home. LMAO!
Reached home, slept for awhile before preparing to celebrate that beloved big Tai's birthday!
Took out the kit and brought it with me into the toilet. Tested it before bathing.
So after i pee-d(tested), i left the kit on top of my toilet roll, and i bathed.
Suddenly remember, instructions stated, must read within 1 min.
Peep at the kit. I thought i saw a negative! Then see again, blur eyed me, it's a positive.
Instantly, i smiled. CNY happy mood uh...
Rushed myself, went to meet my girls. Still, didn't let my Hus know.
Was worried that his decision was abort because that wasn't in my choice.
I want this baby. Even if he leaves me(which i didn't want DUH!), i still wanna keep.
I can't bear to ruin a life. In the future i can't provide baby the best in materials,
but i can give my child the best concern, care and love in the world :)
Met my gems, i hold this secret happily, till we reached Novena.
While eating, then i break the news out. My little Tai react until very funny.
I still remember she didn't get it when i said i've something growing in my stomach,
that will pop out 9/10 months later. What's more(!!!), big Tai alr say "pregnant lah". LOL!
& while eating, we discussed how to break the news to Hus...
After considering, i decided to tell him. Nice, it wasn't what i thought of! :)
We kept this baby, our fruit of Love.
The next day, i skipped afternoon lessons again and went polyclinic to get referral letter to KKH.
That day, the doctor estimated that i'm 7weeks pregnant, baby's EDD was 08/10/10.
Then again the next day after i went polyclinic, i went Tai's place to had steamboat with them.
Blackjack till quite late then cab home. Bathed, and went into Mommy's room to tell her...
Few days later, Hus' came up to talk.
I went for my first antenatal check up @ KKH w/ ah la bu, only when i'm 11th weeks pregnant.
The doctor did a scan for me. I saw my sweet little one on the screen. Very very happy!
Little one's EDD was corrected to 09/10/10. 2nd check up, EDD was corrected to 10/10/10.
Abortion & whatever you can think of, i have thought of before during this pregnancy.
To be truthful, even suicide came across my mind before. Not only once, but many __
My parents gave me their 100% support in everything. Even when i wanted to go for pri doctor.
They asked me to find one that i can trust mine and baby's life in. The fees and etc, they "standby" nice nice give me...
Thanks to my understanding parents and with their help, i kept this angel with no worries.
& along the way, thanks to Tais and my group of Twitter babes, they made my days happy!
Though, this pregnancy wasn't really happy all the time, but now when i cuddled Ray in my arms, i find it worthwhile for all the tears i've dropped during quarrels with Hus...
She was the best gift ever, given from her Daddy...
Nothing beats the bond between a child and his/her mother.
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