Was on time, but too many patients ahead of me. I guess Dr Wong is very late today?
2 babies went for their check up. Super cute! Esp the one who's only one-month old.
His cries, tok gong! SUPER LOUD. Fierce tiger boy!
When i reach, Ray was still moving about. Awhile later, i think she went to sleep. No movements.
Routine check, BP, weight taken, scannings. Hehehe. Able to see her again. Nice, me like (Y)
Today see her side view, she placed her left hand on her cheeks, right hand under her chin sleeping.
Pattern exactly the same as me. See her nose and confirmed again; really sharp. Nice~
Dr Wong scan her organs to let me have a look. It's so cute! Esp her stomach and intestines.
Then, he scanned her heart.. Which the scan thingy was placed around my belly button..
I guess she got irritated by the scanning halfway. Flipped very hiong and pi down, continue sleep.
Must be sleepy.. Stretched over a week, she gained less than a kg. Is it bad? Hmm...
One thing, she's matured enough to pop anytime already! Whoa~
Went home straight to wash her long sleeves rompers and the blankie which i've gotten yesterday.
Throw in her new mittens and booties, and also the one and only beanie. LOL!
Hang all up. I don't dare to sun the mittens & booties that tek-kor. Scare any one of it will fly away!
The rompers. Hang all tom-balek to save spaces. Can use lesser tek-kor!
Ray's blankie! I think i will still get one more. I like the ladybird and butterfly oneeeee.
Daddy still tut the tek-kor out to sun her mittens and booties. Tsk.
In the end i keep making my way to the kitchen to keep a lookout whether any is flying off not.
Rabak! Anyway, the red mittens & doggy booties, im letting Ray to wear it during discharge. Hehe.
Supposingly, i'm gonna do another set of clips for Ray after washing the clothes.
But very tired uh. Till no energy liao. I think tonight sure K.O very early! Can't stop yawning~
Maybe tomorrow i will do it? Shall see how. Tomorrow Aunt's 49th day.
After praying don't know wanna head out with cousins. Tired uh ><
Im hungry. Gonna go and have my fried oyster now. Kbye -wave-
Feel like crying whenever Mommy explain to those KPO jis why everything also i pay. She tried to cover so much. I find it no meaning. Deep in our heart we know who's doing it, who's not.. Why have to help some people to cover up their shame... I feel so upset seriously. Nobody, other than parents, takes the initiative to ask me what i need. Knowing what baby is lack of, i go get it right away. Be it i have extra cash or not. If no, i still went ahead to get it. A/c used to have a lump sum of money. Till now, pathetic amt left. Everything is me, mommy and daddy. Turn one round back again, still me, mommy and daddy. Nobody else. Baby is gonna be due soon. Where's the iniative to ask about when wanna go get diapers together? Where's the initiatives to ask what i'm still lack of during my confinement with Baby at my own place? Worse, i will be doing confinement alone with parents. Why? Becos' of some nonsense comments... Sometimes, i see those things bought for baby, those topics i raised times over times, those times when i felt so helpless, i feel i'm more like a single mom... When i'm just married, my aunt was still walking around actively. Now she's on the wheelchair, she still came over just to deliver few bottles of wine for my confinement. My tears welled up the moment i saw her. Now in this state, she still can do the wine for me... Everytime i raise the topic abt letting mommy to look after bb, end up only quarrels. I was told that i'm not understanding and respectful enough when making decisions. Then who come and understand and respect me? I feel that, even i expressed out how i feel, there's no meaning to it. Afterall, it's those stupid myths and rumours people are afraid of. I don't see why choosing the better way to lead our own life have to bother with other people's comment. Frankly speaking, when we were both on our limit quarreling, filing for divorce was really taken into my consideration.. I realised what's marriage is. It's not only about us. It's both our families, which i really want to end it straight at times. With those nonsensical myths keep going through my ears time and time again, i really feel so tired. There's no use in speaking out how i feel.. I'm learning to tolerate, yet there's a limit. It blew off twice so far... so long more i can hold on i also don't know. One thing i must say, i have a good hus in treating me good and well... But i'm really really tired in alot of things now... I'm sick of being a clown...
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