A little emotional..

Say 'Hi' to ultra chor lor girl. I think i really love breads :3
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Saturday went Marina Square & Suntec City with Hus.
Killed my chocolate fondue crave! Not at the shop i wanted to try. But it's nice! :>
Nothing to walk, but hugged one big box of Hello Panda before we leave. Heh.
Walked :O to Bugis. Wanted to have KOI, queue long like artificial dick.

Hus saw his friends, chat chat awhile, went to get BBT from { i ♥ taimei }.
No nice no nice. Wondering why people say it's nice. Machiam teh-beng put pearls.
The taste is really lipton add a LITTLE bit of milk, put pearls nia. zZz.

Walked 2 bus-stop distance to take bus back his place.
First time find myself so energetic eh... Just becos' wanted to get a seat in the bus, walked so far.
PIL came to fetch us back...

Midnight, hungry uh. Hus cooked instant noodles for me. FIRST TIME K! Nbxz.
How long i have been waiting for this moment... HAHAHA! Mad nice. Yummmmm!
Straight to bed after washing up, brushing teeth. Pig.

Guess we walked too much, the pain keep coming on and off throughout the night -.-
Woke up, machiam hunger strike again. Wait wait wait wait wait wait. zZz.
Till 1 plus then get to eat BREAKFAST. Very very du lan. Fine ... ... ... ...

Wanted to go out, but Hus drag drag drag. Nice one. DotA somemore! I sleep lor... ... ...
& happen that his iPod gives him a hard time. Yeah, stayed at home for the whole nice fking day.
5 plus hungry already. Fine, tolerate... tolerate... 6pm, tolerate... .... ... 7pm, still tolerating... ... ...
I went to the kitchen quietly to eat Hello Panda and drink plain water, in case my gastric act up.

Sometimes, i felt as if i'm transparent, my bump is fake. I always have to wait for food there.
I don't feel as if they know i need the food, i need the nutrients. I felt so so so neglected.
I cried. I miss my parents, my own place so much. Partly also because of food __

At my own place, hungry already, Dad would go out straight to packet food for me.
If i don't want, Mom would cook porridge or do wanton, maybe fried some cabbage rice for me.
Even before i'm pregnant, they did it. Now, cook even more! They just won't let me eat maggie.
Over there, when i wanted to cook a pack of maggie, also have to give up becos' of that lj stove...

When i reached home on Sunday night after dinner, i saw Mommy's eyes in watery state.
I sense the worries in her, that i didn't pick up her calls so many times, & my contractions.
When i told MIL about my contractions, i saw no reactions from her. Not even a 'huh' from her.
Everytime she only ask about how baby is doing, yet not me.. Everything is baby, not me...

At my own place, in a bit of pain, parents would get so worked up for me.
Like yesterday, i reached home a little later (teacher hold us back), they're so worried already.
Mommy even scolded me, saying contractions coming now & then still anyhow walk, nv go home.
At night we went out for 歌台with godmom, godmom even went to get a chair for me to sit down.
They are standing, while me sitting, watching the show. How much they cared?...

2 months passed, nothing seems to be going on better.
After marriage, i learnt what's tolerance pretty much. Clearly knew that there's a limit also.
Somehow and somewhat, it's hitting the limit so soon & i'm so afraid that i would hurt Hus...

Marriage involves the feelings of both parties, yet tied together with two families.
To keep it going, it's not only the feelings should be taken in. The families that are involved.
How they speak, how they think, how they react, impacts on how the couple live.

One day if i were to be ended up as a divorcee, it can nv happen that both of us got no feelings.
Now i understand how my cousin-in-law felt. Truely,madly in love, yet things don't go their way.
Now seperated, the family then regret, isn't it too late? You ruined your child's happiness...