Ugly bride.

There's so much for me to think, to search, to contact.
I'm the one seeing all the details except for restaurants and dates.
Even till now, can't even know the exact date for ROM.
How am i going to hand the invitation form for the solemniser?

I've been looking for a decent make up artist, either alone or with my friends.
I've been looking for a videographer and photographer, wanting to record everything down alone.

I also wanted to be positive and be cheerful throughout this pregnancy.
But it seems that everything is falling in and piling up. Not yet done.
Drag and drag. I don't envy other brides-to-be initially. But now, i am.
When they got to know that they're pregnant, they got married by the next month.
Me? I knew precious' presence since 17 February, till now. We have yet to get our dates.

Each time i look at my stomach through the mirror, i feel that i'm going to be an ugly bride.
Every night before i sleep, i was wondering are we able to hold customary in time..
Or maybe, we can only hold civil marriage ceremony.

Asking me to stay positive it's useless.
Because everything that's placed in front of me now, shows it all why i'm feeling so negative.